I didn't have anything written in my notebooks for october like I do for the other two songs. This was a really hard song for me to write. I had some of the worst mental health times and biggest breakdowns I've ever had that october and this song was a huge part of it. I didn't want to write about this anymore so I was determined to write about something entirely different but the lines wanted to be what they wanted to be.
it's angry. and it's sad. and it's me talking to me and him and wanting to hate someone with every fiber of my being but not being able to. october is a really deep loneliness.
lyrics
you'll find the truth in the distance
wandering twined tangled paths
so sure of our difference
we forget and play the past
i still burn inside
smoke under empty skies
when did fast get so slow?
it's not you, it's just october
can't catch up, i'd really just rather go
deep breath and it's over
keep the quiet lies
safer to hide behind
i hope she drives you mad
i didn't mean it like that
i didn't mean it like
i didn't mean it like
what did you mean it like?
slow, slow, slow, slow
keep the quiet lies
safer to hide behind
i hope she drives you mad
i didn't mean it like that
credits
from amber,lovely,
released April 12, 2022
lyrics, composition by Chapin
mixing, mastering, engineering by Simon Schlager
Not only did I enjoy the lyrics from the very first listen, it also caused me to reflect not only on the lyrics but what I was feeling. There are these brilliant moments without lyrics which provide a space for deep contemplation. It had been a bit since a song hit me as this one did. yodaleiaheehoo
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